What you see is what you get.

Nothing. Have fun with it. Sorry for the disappointment yall.

Scenario

Your life falls apart.
You have no idea what you want in the long term.
People who used to be in your life left, and dont want to see you again because your life has changed and you have changed as a person.

When you look at yourself in the mirror, you hate what you see.
The person you used to be has gone.
You have no reason to live.
Your life sucks, full of uncertainty. The psychologist no longer wants anything to do with you. Swallow the anti depressants and it will all be ok, but it will take time.

What to do. Change? How?

I need to leave this city, its full of jealousy, hate and thoughts of what might have been.
If i leave, i get a fresh start, but if i fuck this chance up.
I dont even know.
But i dont do anything about it. I just sit in bed all day and take drugs.
I am a useless piece of shit, im still not sure if deciding to live was a good idea.
I would probably be happier dead. Its not like i am doing anything.

How would the world be different without me.
It wouldnt. Not now, not in 50 years.
So why live a life where i will get a job, grow old and die.
It seems like a useless waste of time.
So fuck it, if i sit around and do nothing, i will become depressed again and hopefully slip and die.
RIP